Love, and other disappointments.

I find myself falling a little deeper into the hole everytime I re-open myself to love, or at least atempting to. Everything is so fast paced these days. I miss relationships where its just spending time with a person and getting to know them, gradually moving into the holding hand stage, then its a kiss on the cheek, and things keep progressing. These days its a wink, a smile, and a screw. I want to go back to my undiluted fantasies of how I wanted love to be. I used to be innocent, and curious, but now I put up walls so high that I cant even get over them. Love can really mess a person up. Perhaps at some point soon I can find some one, for now I'm going to focus on looking and feeling better about myself. :)